First off I just want to thank all the new followers I’ve picked up over the last few days. All of your stories entertain and inspire me every single day. You all help me in ways I cannot describe and it’s made me feel like I’m a part of something greater. Well now on to last nights festivities.
Well last night I had my biggest manic episode in months. It’s been almost a year since I went crazy like that. I couldn’t sit still. I couldn’t think straight. I was on cloud nine and I felt invincible. My self-esteem sky rockets and I feel that anything was possible. My creative levels went through the roof. I should have detected this was coming because for the last few days I’ve been especially creative and horny. I’m pretty interested in a certain gal and we go back and forth a lot and I don’t know if that was a trigger or not, but it sure was a lot of fun. Continue reading
Well today I’ve decided to talk about how I feel emotions and by going into detail I hope I can help people understand both myself and others which similar conditions for it’s hard for many of us to feel things like “normal” people can. It’s not that I wouldn’t like to either, it’s just that I’ve learned to accept and even enjoy the craziness that comes from Bipolar and having a somewhat stunted emotional growth. But at the same time, I believe I am more in touch with my emotional side that a lot of people, because if anything I’ve had to learn to be able to anticipate my moods so I can prepare an appropriate coping mechanism.
For a long time the only way I could cope was to self medicate. To have lots of mindless sex, drink, do drugs.. anything to distract me from how I was really feeling almost every moment of my life. This is why I preach so much of the importance of therapy and medication now. Because being different isn’t a bad thing. And needing a little help doesn’t make you weak neither. But the most important first step is deciding you don’t want things to stay embedded in that horribly dark place. You have to WANT to get help. Continue reading
I was reading one of my favourite blogs called Infinite Sadness… or Hope? It’s created by a wonderfully inspirational woman named Cate from across the Tasman Sea. That’s New Zealand for those of you not from Australia, and I came across a post titled “Blog For Mental Health 2014 (four in four)”. The more I read, I discovered I really liked the idea behind Blog for Mental Health. It’s a campaign fronted by A Canvas For The Minds and so I signed up straight away. Here is my pledge for 2014.
“I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2014 Project.
I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others.
By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health.
I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.”
It’s time once again for life’s great adventure to begin anew. And as always, things are inexplicably complicated. Again. Haha it’s funny how life tends to travel in cycles. It seems that history does in fact repeat itself.